Dear blog,

A few hours back, I met my old friend in a group and the girl good friend told me : '' Do you know 'P' is attached? ''

in fact, i didnt really know cos i didnt keep track of her facebk status. but i admit all the time now and then, i did think of her, hope she's living well.

Heard that she's very happy now, and she is together with 'C' . wow. i know 'P' do liked him before they went to swiss to study... and now in USA doing internship with him.

I gave my best wishes to her then and am glad she's coping well there. We never really contact since she leave for S'pore on 1Jan2009. Guess i still remember the very day that she gave me a call and told me she didnt want to get into relationship and that i was a nice guy and so on...

actually, i wanted to tell you, i didnt really so interested in being a nice guy, i just wanna be with you. but i know is all too late, the timing was wrong. u were leaving for your overseas study and he is there together with u at the same course.

i remember u told me u werent ready for relationship but guess u told a white lie then... i knew u liked him. Remembered giving u the diary in front of him, which i least expect it. did u even know how tough it was for me just to do that diary, i was crippled at that time... but still did it.

thou i have no regret. i have given my best shot. guess we werent fated. i fall in love with her just too late.

In the case of 'M', at least she came clean to tell me how she felt but that wasnt you. thou i never blame you, but i hate ppl who lie. if u like him, just tell me. there's no need to tell me long story.

but knowing u living well now with him, i just glad for u. jiayou! i remembered saying that to you in most of my sms to you... guess i will still say it to you in my heart.

good luck. u have actually woken me up in a way. I woke up knowing i cant be in that state, i got to work hard for my career. i have been focusing on my body from then on, and in my path career and study....

is time for me to work hard now. when it comes to love, guess timing and fate plays a huge role. i was never lucky or never good enough in those last 2 cases. i swear if i ever meet the CORRECT one as the palmist told me, i will give my best cos i know what to do if given a chance.

good luck girl!

xxxxx jaRen –Yong jiA--

xxxxx 20 yrs old

xxxxx TemaseK polYtechniCcc

xxxxx Tourism Student (hospitality)

xxxxx Kem football club member

xxxxx Sentosa Academy football club member

xxxxx Wheel chair ( lammers)club

xxxxx SEA River Club

xxxxx Jersey no: 11, 3

xxxxx ex-manjusri wushu club

xxxxx love his ah ma