i know to some people,
the job maybe easy

but to me,
i am struggling.
u can say i am slow
but i have try my best

no one seem to know.
the difficulties i go thru
I admit i may not be the only one
other may have been thru it in the past

but i am the worst
people almost gone mad becos of me

i never want to be like this
yes, i am slow
i am trying my best, do u know?

i am so tired now.
people may say this is simple
but not to me.

i do understand
i have lots of obstacles to go thru
many many more

my mind are just too stress now
i know i lousy
am tired now. am feeling sick.

god, are u listening to my prayers?

I hold onto your body
And feel each move you made
Your voice is warm and soothing
I wont forget the way we kiss

Cause i am your guy
you're my girl
Whenever you reach for me
I will do all I can

Even thou there may be times,
It seems I am far away
But I am ready to learn,
The power of love.

My friends keeping telling me
If I really love her,
Set her free
And if she returns in kind
I will know she is mine

So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come someday
Only heaven knows
Maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
All i can do is hope and pray
Cause heaven knows

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you never leave me
The touch of your hand say that you catch me whenever I fall
you say it best when you say nothing at all

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel you
I would still feel for you

Even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
you would still have my heart until the end of time
Cause all I need is you, My valentine
you're all I need, my love

Alone

How I want this 2 yrs to past quickly.
Tired of everything
Just want to live a normal life, civillian life.

Just want to travel out of this S'pore.
To explore the big world out there
Where is much slower pace,
LIfe goes on slowly,relaxing, overlooking moutains, oceans

That's where i know i will be truly happy.
Have been turning to god thru this period of time
Counting on him to lead me on, thru this period

I just want peace and quiet,
All of a sudden, the jest i have in life lastime,
It all just turns down...
Maybe i am really so tired now.

I just want to put to sleep
With a blink of eye, i hope it will be over soon.
How long more, i have been counting the days.

Alone. slient. i am kinda of getting use to it.
God, Can you hear me?
I'm seeking for your guidance.
Show me the way, i will walk it thru.

i wonder what is the feeling of death
i wonder if i just leave this world
i wonder if i have the courage to do so
i know is also quite silly to do so.

but i wonder,
if i die, if, ....
i'm tired.

i know is an excuse.
but really i am.

should i just say bye?
i cant do that,
the consquences,

but i wonder other than my family,
if i really die,
would anyone actually care,
what i would appreciate most is just to say
Jaren is a great guy.

other than that,
i now ponder if i just jump,
will my troubles jump/fly off too?

sad.

xxxxx jaRen –Yong jiA--

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