Blogging allow me to express myself.
Maybe people will say i am emotional, guess i am brought up this way by my mum

Since young,
I have listened to her worries, her troubles.
Yes, I'm tired actually with my issues also.

But I know i can't say tired.
Dun worry mum, I will depend on myself.

I have a pair of hands and legs,
I will not make you worry,
I will earn my $ and paid for my own educational fees definitely. Not a single cent i will need.
I try my best okay.

I will work hard to earn the $.
Some people at work maybe saying
Why I seem to work so hard?
Its my off days,
But I managed to work outside assignments,
Or OT, every cents i saved,
I feel a sense of accomplishment
Nearer to my target.

Maybe on the outside,
I appear rich to people?
Becos they always ask where is the next country i am visiting . . .

Yes, i love travelling.
It is the thing that makes me happy
I guess its from my mum genes.

But is mostly my own $ when i reached the age of 18 yrs old.
I believe in using my own $ to make myself happy.
Only 1 close friend did I tell her about my current situation.
Because I don't really know who to talk to and some time u got to see
the mood to talk too.

But one thing I am sure,
I will work hard and
one day, it will be my turn to ask service officers,
''Where's the Gold lounge for SIA First Class?''
I will believe and work towards it.

I have been working and working for the past few days. . . working OT ya so as to earn more $ and make my bank account looks fatter. $ can do wonders, but its not everything. I have choosen to take a break tomorrow from work and unwind myself, indulge in music, and friends.





Maybe work got into me these few days, till for no reason, i am feeling emo now. haha. The words i have kept in my heart, the things i wanted to say but i didn't.





I awoke to see your hair in a mess,

make up running down your face,
eyes red from crying,

and the first thing I would say to her


''You're still that beautiful in my eyes. ''

And I meant it.


When you love someone, you can tell.
But when you are in love with someone,
Everyone else can tell.





6 billion souls in the world & sometimes all you need is fate

Somewhere in between all our laughs,
long talks, stupid little rights, and all our jokes,
i fell in love.





It's amazing how easily you make me smile
I'm trying to think of something, anything,
Just to keep from thinking of you.





If you cant get someone out of your head,
Maybe they are suppose to be there.





Late at night,

when the whole world is sleeping,

someone stay up late thinking of you.

and wish upon a star.



Everytime I hear this song, I think of you

And every song reminds me of you

Follow your heart,

It knows the way



You can fall from the sky

You can fall from the tree

But the best way to fall is in love.



Take my hand, we will make it, I swear by heart.

The reason that god put spaces between our fingers,
Was so that someone else would fill them up.

My world was black & white

Until the day you walk through my door and into my heart

When our hands interlocked with each other,

How I wish the time could just stop.

How I wish I could never have the opportunity to let go.

You know you love her when you can't help

But cry because you know she's not yours...

She's his. . .

I wish i wa as invisible as you make me feel.

It's weird how I keep trying to hold on to something that's not coming back

Sometimes, we must get hurt in order to grow,

We must fail in order to know.

Sometimes, our vision clear only after our eyes are washed away with tears.

I loved you once,

I loved you still,

I always have

I always will

Some wonderful books i have began to read. . .

These books are keeping me occupied.

Oceans apart,
Day after day,
And i slowly go and sleep.

I hear your voice
But it doesnt get close to me

Wherever you go,
Whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or my heart breaks
I will be waiting for you

I hear the laughter
I taste the tears
But i cant feel you now
Oh, can u see baby
You got me going crazy

Yes when you are in love
When i meet you
He's still in your eyes

There you were, wild and free
Reaching out like you needed me
A helping hand to make it right
I am holding you all through the night

I'll be the one,
I'll be the one
Who will make all your sorrows undone

I'll be the light
When you feel like there's nowhere to run

I'll be the one
To hold you and make sure that you'll be alright'
Cause my faith is gone
And I want to take you from darkness to light

I recently become so addicted to reading self improvement books. It teaches and hopefully does change my mindset now.

hmm... dun put on an act in front of others. Just be the person you really want to be. You are what you are, you do not have to impress or make anyone satisified by being the person they expect you to be.

I wonder what do people think of me. Maybe to people who may not know me well, they will say i am lame. i really dislike it when people say i am lame. Because deep down, hey i 'm not. But if ppl think that way, i also cannot say anything. But if more than 1 ppl say i am lame, it means i am really lame in people eyes?

Arent I serious in your eyes? If you know me better, I can be a serious person ya. But the book teaches me, just be your ownself. I admit it is difficult to ignore how people have the preception of you. But i will learn and keep on learning to be a better Jaren, not to impress anyone, but to improve myself both physically and spiritually..

''My show'' was on channel U . . . haha. But the face was not so clear as usual...

Its just an additional income and an experience for me in so call acting . . .

Rested for today a well deserved break... learning about life and reading the bookssss.... =)
Life should be enjoyable. If you think it is, then it is.

I have learn:
- This moment affords me infinite possibilities, for I live in the eternal now of being.
-Success meets all my endeavors and I am adequate to deal with every area of my life.

And one serious grave mistake I have always made when i meet new people:
'' I always tell myself i am bad in remembering names. NO, now I should change my mentality i am able to remember your name. '' I have been trying and constantly reminding myself that I have to call people by their name cos I know that is what they love to hear most. Just like i do when people call my name. =)

FIR came into the airport transit area. . . for signing of autograph. Apparently, the transit mall is not crowded because its all tourists. ang mo. who the hell know who is FIR Taiwan band huh...


I have penned my name down in 10 lucky draw coupons. Hopefully, win a pair of tickets to FIR concerts. And i will sell it ! to earn $. to maybe my friend, Qing Liang, since he love them so much.

If is at shopping mall, i cant imagine how terrible the crowd will be. The fans were like outside transit mall waving to FIR.
Only a few Singaporeans and lucky Taiwanese. I am one of the few lucky ones. Wanted to call my fellow colleagues like the interns to join in... but saw the work schedule, hmmm.... those should be interested are not working!~ haha. too bad huh.

Today work is lousy. I admit it was all down to miscommunication. But i have learn so much from reading the book that it doesn't bother me a single bit now~ i am so glad. work is work. After work, lets forget such things. I got to have confidence in my work, in everything i does. be calm guys, nothing to be so worry about. It doesn't mean i don't bother in my work, but being so anxious does not solve anything. it only make things worse. Take what people say as a pinch of salt, Jaren. =) Thanks, but i'm still learning. everyone is learning from each other. =)

This is one of the best book i ever read... the title may seem a bit too ya.... but in fact, i think everyone should read this for self improvement.

After reading, this has changed my entire opinion and way of thinking...

While waiting for my army, is time for me to improve myself in every sense be it in terms of dressing, thinking,etc. I don't play computer games because to me is such a waste of time. Instead, I read such books to bring myself a further level and beyond. upgrade my philosophy.

These are the key learning points:

* The only competition is to achieve greater personal growth and excellence in what he desires to accomplish.

* You must give yourself the right to make mistakes because it is through mistakes that your awareness is expanded.

* Yesterday love has been spent, tomorrow love is not here yet and today love must be earned.

* You cant help the way you feel about things, but you can help the way you think about and react to them.

xxxxx jaRen –Yong jiA--

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