Everyday in the world around us,
real life angels are doing the things they do ...
And bringing more souls to the world around them

There are places within our hearts that can be filled with memories.
And there are places in our soul that can only be healed by the gentle hands of time . . .

It has been a hectic week for Mr.Jaren...

I have been working non-stop since last Thursday... It has been 7 days for now le.. and is still counting...

3 more days of work to my OFF day.. so that will be 10 days working non stop for me. =) means more $ to save up.

Went for TV shooting on Tuesday at a sch in Hougang...


Has been 1.5 yrs since i last heard the word ''Cameras rolling in 4, 3, 2, 1... ACTION!'' and ''Cut''..
I don't really care what the end product will look like on TV.. haha. it is the $ that they pays me that counts. And is rather easy money i must admit. Instant cash. Now that they have my contact no. hopefully they can contact me again if they need what they like to call : EXTRAS...

Pay me the $ and i will do it.


Airport training... what they call the ''amazing race'' in the airport?~ whatever.

有时我正在想：
世界是残酷的
他让 我们拥有家与爱
但同时，他能轻易地把我们所拥有的一切剥取

妈妈的爱是伟大的
在地震里，
我见到了母爱，
令人情绪激动
我也不尽悲伤起来，
使到我眼泪汪汪似的


不要等到失去了他
才来后悔


那如果我先离开这个世界
我很想告诉我的家人
十分感谢你们一路来那无畏不之的照料
很想告诉她
其实我有多么地爱你
很想告诉朋友们
谢谢你们在我伤心难过，开心的时候
陪伴着我

听到看到，他们无奈的样子，

我心里仿佛也碎了，

只求他们的痛苦会结束。。

只求他们可以象正常人一样。。

不再痛苦，不再接受旁人的眼光。。

For the past few days
Staying at the airport
Allows me to see the unfortunate people
They were on a tour around the airport

They were young ones, old ones
Some shout loudly, some simply sleep on the ground for no reason
Some behave so excitedly, some were so quiet
Whenever i sees them, i felt how lucky i am now

Able to sit down and type this out without much trouble
Able to handle my daily needs on my own
It hits me that we should give/share our love
It is good to know that you are able to give back to the society

The volunteers were trying to contain them
Explaining to them what they are seeing
Trying their best to educate them
It really warms my heart to know that people still care for one another

If any of you guys know where to volunteer and would like to do so
Please do call me and i will try my best to make whatever available time I have on hand
Time is not a factor i think
Sharing love with the less unfortunate is the best reward one can get at the end of day

Para 1:
Life is so cute.
God created such that 2 persons are far from each other
Your task is to find each other on this big earth.

Para 2:
Some people thought they have found it.
But cannot offically do things together.
Or even no time to do things together as what other couple does
They can only envy other couple on the streets.

Para 3:
Some people thought they have found the correct partner
Even to the extend of thinking/ preparations for marrying him
But till the last moment,
They break up and it hurts the party who all along had wishful thinking

Para 4:
Some people do not have partners
They envy people on the street
They told themselves if given an opportunity,
They could do much more. . .

Para 5:
Some people have loving people around them
But they did not think much about it
Nor do they treasure him/her
Till they realize . . . its too late.

Last 2 weeks of fun:

Mahjong, Clubbing, night cycling, chilling out with dearest friends at cafe, talking crap, fun and laughter... =)

Sorry, Tze shuen, i cant go pubbing with you guys... i got to limit my spending ya and also i m working... =) But happy birthday, early wishes for you@! =O i remember your birthday la, don't be sad... that time it just slipped off my mind.. but i know when~!

Clubbing pics:
wushu rox!~ =P

Me and Xiao ling...
omg. why am i acting cute?? shit. lol.
the 2 wushu professional girls.. dun play with them.. or else.. ''die''
Xiao Ling (my owner) and me ( her penis) haha... omg. i remembered she call me once in canteen...while we playing in school...

''Penis, stop running!!'' in front of so many students!! i stop and pretend she not calling me sia... so malau...Come on, drink it down man...

Next, to night cycling... =)

this time with my sec sch class 4E... =O
Shots taken at Old changi hospital... damn haunted place... so dark!! we were trying to spot ghosts... but nothing.. only some sounds...

and kian siong was holding my hands so tight... guess what? all along, i heard someone talking...
and i turn back.. oh, it is kian siong chanting... i thought is some interesting noise. the girls dun dare to come up with us... lol.
Taken at the entrance of haunted place... me with my torchlight on.. haha.. trying to play a prank on them... only me with torch light.. boo. all last min never bring... lol.

the mad secondary sch boys.... =)
we cycle along the airport road... i love it! i saw my aircrafts taking off!!! my troubles fly off with them... and also i love to hear the loud engine noise of aircraft. i know i m seow..
aiya.. we are trying to act angry... but u see the 2 hands at the back, tze shuen!! u spoil the photos with your that hand!! haha..

I was lost after the jungle walk.
I mis looked the map
And there I was
Far from my car park

Met this kind family of 5.
They offer to bring us back to our car park
We declined his kind offer, paiseh.
And he still waited for us 5 mins.

Then we decide to hitch his car
Becos is simply so far
A ride of 20 mins
I see kind people in s'pore.
I'm so touched,
Had he not offer the ride,
I think we have to track back 8 km of walk?

Thank you Stranger!
You made my day =)

Put me to sleep,
Ya, is there a pill to pop and let me forget
Things that I should just forget

Just remind to wake Jaren up at age 25
Haha, I'm just console-ing myself
Is that the magical age for me?

No, not truth, dun read too much into it Jaren.
Just be yourself.
I'm now having damn low confidence now.
That's isnt it what I want.
Something got to be done.

Where's the ans?
Or the ans I have already knew?
Or there is no answer to such a Question?
Only time will tell, reveals everything
Time.

Standing beside you,
Makes everything seem so encompassing.
As long as you keep me accompany,
Quietly will be enough.
Just your prescene alone is more than enough for me.
We will hold our hands together
And quietly gaze the stars above us.
Together, we work towards our dream.
Every word, every sentence
To be filled with our smiles.
I'm still waiting for you
To quietly love me.
Quietly holding our hands together,
Is the simpliest dream

Japiur- The Pink City . . .

This was where Jaren stood 3 weeks ago...

And today, read the newspaper, BOMB BLAST!!
This is where the bomb took place, in front of this tourist attraction.

I saw the pics on the newspaper, recalled my memories, the scene,
I cant imagine what it would be now....
It was already CHAOS, now it is VERY CHAOS....

Blood all over, people crying, dead bodies lying on the road, ambulances, medic staff,
I'm not surprised all these shops u see in this pictures are now all torn by the bomb. Some of them are dead.

I'm so grateful i have been to such places before all these happen.
Japiur is a nice city, filled with pink walls, romance,
But now is filled with red blood.

Likewise, Earthquakes hit China, Chengdu.
I'm grateful that i have been there already.
Seeing images of the scene there now,
Recall the time i had there.
Exactly the same,
Only that now the buildings that i seen collapse.
Some people i saw on the streets may not be around now.
Life is precious, get what i mean?

Sri lanka.
Fight with tamil tigers recently again.
I count myself bless that nothing happens when i was there 2 yrs ago.
No fight, but strong police presence all over the country.

I'm not saying i travel a lot, compare to other people who really been to so much countries,
until i really envy them...

But I felt pissed off when i see people in Singapore who don't give a single care about world news
That's happening around us.
''It's not my business'' some said.
I feel a tinge of sadness when i heard that.
It only underline that they have not seen the world, they are selfish.
They don't know what the world is outside, only they themselves and their house.

I feel sad for them in fact. =X
I mean this is not the way to think ba, i feel.
Just becos you are living safely in singapore,
you think is none of your business?!?!

Ya, true, what can you do even you know...
but at least read the news and understand.

I heard kids in Singapore demand before:
They expect their parents to give them PS, Games, Travel to places they like (E.g. Japan)
They only travel to well developed countries and see the rich people live.
when they come back, they only get more envy and jealous.

But if kids go to poorer countries like Cambodia,
Only then you will understand. Seeing is believing.

For example, plastic spoons we use once and throw away
do you know that when i saw people in India when they eat,
they use cardboard to act as a spoon.
Simply because they don't have $ to buy plastic spoon.

Me and Wen Qin clubbing scene.

My 2 girl- friends... Clubbing. (wushu friends)


The time reads 5.02am now.
I am just back from my zouk outing(clubbing with my wushu friends)
I feel so much sober now.
Clubbing scene...

So sorry, girl.
If I'm not wrong,
Her name was Esther.

Although i know she don't know my blog,
But somehow rather,
I feel so guilty.

I just wanna say : '' I'm sorry, girl. ''
Maybe all off a sudden,
Because I'm so drunk,
I flirt with this girl on the dance floor.

I admit, never in my life,
Did i feel so ''happy'' and high...
I didn't know her at all!
But i admit she looks sexy.
Sorry, but somehow rather,
She was the first to start the ball rolling.

She asked me why i keep bumping into her?
And i apologies to her.
After which, she invited me to dance with her.
I seriously dunno what am I thinking.

I began to dance with her.
I admit i put my hands around her.
I'm sorry. To think back, so sorry.

She whispered to my ear,
''You are so cute, boy''
Yes, i am a human.
Naturally, I feel flattered by her words. .

And we dance with each other
For quite a while,
Don't ask me how long it was,
Because i am really so drunk.
I dunno anything, except i admit i feel so ''high''.

Until she gave me a pat on my cheeks.
I really dunno if it was a kiss or not,
But what i know,
when she does that,
She was not my girlfriend.
Nor do i know her well.

I shoved her away and apologies to her.
Sorry, girl, I didn't know what i was doing.
Likewise, i'm sure you are also drunk.
I moved away and party with my other friends.

My friends thinks i m drunk.
I never admit i was.
But i think i am really drunk.
I spent around $100 on this clubbing.

Don't ask me what i spent.
I dunno what i m doing.
I just know i pay and pay.
I even use my driving license
Thinking it was my credit card to pay for the drinks.
And i sign 3 times,
Because i cant find the line to sign.

So sorry, my friends.
I m really drunk.
At one moment,
I even send wrong sms to people.
Now i look back,
I send sms to Brenda and Tze Shuen.

For what?!?!
I dunno what i m doing.
I only know my head is spinning.
So i went out at 3am.
Waited for Xiaoling for 1 hour.

I'm sorry,
I couldn't really protect her.
I tried to shove her away from the surroundibg guys.
I admit, we guys are beast sometimes.
Taking advantage of girls.
That was the girl... i think. sorry!~



But you got to control yourself.
I feel so sorry to that girl.
But the guys surround my friend who was a girl,
hug her, as a friend, I got to protect her.
I tried to, but she keep going back to the guys arms.

I was giddy at that time too.
So, i waited for her to come out with my other friend
Who i instructed to keep an eye on her.

My friend wanted to go back with the guys.
Seow ar, how well you know them?
Girls, if you are reading this now,
please do not let us guys take advantage of you.
I think guys are inhuman if you take advantage of girl who is drunk.

I admit i did just now.
I'm sorry.

Later, I realize that this girl- friend of mine
Was heart broken,
The boy left her for another girl.
Hey, I understand.
I have been thru it before.

There's no need to make yourself so drunk.
You will still remember once you are sober.
Please, do treasure your body.
Although she keep saying she's not drunk,
But still,
There's no need to let the guys touch you.

Lastly, I just wanted to say
I feel guilty to what i did just now.
I'm really sorry.
I should not behave like that.
Even if she is drunk...

The world is so big out there.
Being just a tenant on this Earth,
Why must we fight for authority,
Fight for power, fight for money.

Yes, Money is king.
Money, fame, power,
They are all just materialistic stuff.
Having them does not necessarily mean happy.

Travel, look at the world, friends.
You will get to realize that money cant buy you happiness
Why must people trying to out wit, out do each other?
Take a break, look at the world in the bigger picture.

What's life? Isnt it to be happy?
Stop fighting for power.
Money cannot be earn enough, my friend.
Why must colleagues/ people play political game?

I accidentally saw the pictures online taken (you and him together)
Think you are really happy now.
Hopefully, he is the one that you are looking for.
Hopefully, he treat you good.

I have nothing to say.
I think I myself have choose to distance away from you.
Knowing that you are happy,
Is enough for me.

Go and enjoy life with him. =)
I have in fact lots to say
But now, I just pray for you.

I met this man who claims he is a palmist... I did not want to try at first although i am interested... until when i one of my tour members told me :'' Hey young man, you should try this palmist out. he is so accurate. All my past life he says happened to me before!''

On hearing that, i look at his testimonials... wow, is really impressive. There's few pictures whereby people came back from Japan, UK, just to thank and look for him.... becos he told them what's their life and how should one change to become a better person... and some came true in their later part of life...


To me i think knowing what the future lies in your life is cool... but one should just listen, dun take it so seriously.. lol. =) But most important, improve on your weakness, YES!!

so i decide to let him see my palm... is a brave decision... haha. because he say he only tell the truth... no hiding. Come on, i need to know the truth...

S$18 - 1 hr of chat with him.

This is his analysis for me below as attached.. i doubt anyone will understand. but I understand is enough... =)


The first question he ask me: '' Are you really so sensitive?? ''
haha.. i was taken aback when he ask me this Question.
Me: '' Why or rather how do you say that?? ''
Palmist: '' You know the answer yourself . ''

Palmist:'' Some people will say you are sensitive. And you take it so seriously. Am i right?? ''
Me: '' hmm... okay la.''
Palmist:'' Don't care what people say. Sensitive is not your fault. Neither is an error or something you are ashamed off. Your main weakness: you take people comments and opinions seriously. ''

Although he got one spot on, i did not believe him. so i tell him to tell me what happen in my previous years in this life so i maybe can believe him more... haha.

Palmist:'' You are so young now. Not much past life i can read into... ''
Me (thinking) : Bullshit, means you don't dare to take my challenge. Cheat.

Then he began with my past life . . .
Palmist:''Between the age of 18- 21 yrs old, you will suffer a terrible fall. Your leg will give you problems. possible that it even will land you in hospital. ''

Me: (still trying to give him a face that i dun believe): '' Which part of my leg will get injured? ''
Palmist:'' Your knee. ''
Me (thinking) : Oh my god, so true. I have already hurt my leg last yr. age of 19 yrs old. I played soccer and injured my knee...

Palmist: '' You in front of people act as if you are very happy. But when you come back, you will look out of the window... and there you are, thinking again... ''

OMG.. how he know i does tha at home? Does he has a spy cam?

He even know i never greet my dad when he comes home but greet everyone else.. omg.

But he got something wrong...

He thinks i am confuse now... yes i admit, i was confuse maybe in Feb/March... but i am now not confuse. I know my path.. i know my way now.... You're wrong, Mr Palmist, caught you!! haha...

But overall, still quite accurate.

He analysis 3 parts of my life:

1) Emotional Aspects of life
Palmist: ''Do you go for Quality or Quantity?''

Me:'' Of course Quality.''

Palmist:'' So you have to wait.... no need to envy. ''

Me:'' huh? okay. i know what u mean..''

Anyway, tis palmist say i will find her on age 25... hmm... 5 more yrs? lolx. is it long or short wait??

Palmist:'' Even if you have gf before 25 yrs old, she will not be the one for you. And you will get married on 29 yrs old most probably. But 20% you may get marry on 26. 1 yr after u two met. But being a safe person, i would marry on 29 yrs old.''

Omg... how he know what kind ppl i am... i would always confirm first huh... haha.

But i forget to ask him how old will she be? Under what situation will i met her? But maybe somethings are better not to ask, at least there would be some air of suspension huh... no good to know everything. or else i will take note too much things....

Palmist:'' And you will be suprised at how sensitive she is!! remember i say how you are sensitive... but this girl of yours will be more sensitive till the extend that you can't believe. But that is why u fall in love with her... ''

Me:''Sound so scary....''

Palmist:'' She likes you because you are attentive to her... As i say you are sensitive... in other words, you are also very observant. which mean you goes into detail and she likes you being detail, and know what she wants/ dislike....''

haha... i wanted to laugh when i heard what he say... really??

Palmist:'' Her friends will think she is lucky... but my friends will think i am stupid... because i often do romantic stuff for her.... and my friend told me not to do so much.. and i heed their advice... that's where my weakness is. Easily influenced by people and resulted in we having a BIG quarrel... but you will marry each other in the end.''

hmmm... ya my weakness is listen to other ppl too easily... like what the pig brenda ask me to write poem about grass, i went to write... boo. But to be frank la, ya sometime ppl ask me to do or gave their adivce, i would follow... nono, i should change. what ppl say does not necessarily mean i should go and do it....

but i can guess from what he say... apprently, i think we have 2 sets of friends... so we do not have common friends??

Palmist:''Don't worry, this girl is very good. '' (talking to my mom beside me!)

Palmist:'' You would have 1 son with your wife around the age of 31.''
He will definitely be a boy.

2) Profession life

Palmist:'' 25 yrs old is your turning point in your life. You would have settle down a bit, and embark on your career life. You have found the one you are waiting for in your life. Likewise, you know what job u want at age 25.''

27 yrs old, i would land the job i like... and from there, i began to progress.... soon, i would rise up the ladder... and i would migrate to other country becos of work comittments.

Palmist: ''You will think this country you are now living will be too small for you to develop...You are very ambitious,, very. And don't worry.. your wife will support everything u do. You will be moving with your own family and be separated from your parents far away.''

TRUE....!! I think Singapore would not be the place where I would want to develop my career although i love my country! I dare not say i travel a lot, but travelling make me see the world... i think there are so many wonderful and potential place where i can develop my career and make my dreams come true. Singapore market is not bad enuf... and he keep saying i love challenges.... lol.

But i will retire only at the age of 60 yrs old. Is it old or young considering the official retirement age is 65 yrs old.. . oh, am i living in S'pore?? haha.

3) General Characteristics Aspect

-Easily take people comment seriously.

- Hardworking, enthusiasm, when like something, he really likes it a lot.

= so when he don't have that thing, it hurts deeply. (verdict: True)

- Low confidence

Lucky colour: Bright colours.

Lucky Day: Wednesday... but it must be 2nd, 11th, 20th, 27th, a Wednesday...

wa.. so hard to find in one calender.. so when the day comes, i must really do what i want to do.. cos is my lucky day. haha.

Some people have it.
And I wonder from a far
Why is some people so lucky?

Or because they are not choosy?
Nah, i don't think so.
Is it because their fate arrive?

Even if some are together,
They dun look happy in the inside.
So maybe there's nothing to be happy about.

I believe i can show,
I believe i can do it,
I believe i can touch the world,
Swing your wings and fly away.

Believe, there's nothing you cannot achieve.

Don't keep your special one in your eyes,
for which may fall as tears.
Keep her in your heart,
So that every heart reminds you that there's someone with you.

All of a sudden, i felt that isnt it good to remain single?
Because i feel more care free, i could do whatever i like.
You needn't worry about your other partner.
You could widen up your social circle.
Make more friends and love this world more.
If you are attached, you will be only prbably thinking of him/her.
It will deter you from making more friends.
It will keep you having a wider circle of social network.

This is pig Brenda, bowling....
WAh... seem so ''pro'' ... hahaha. pig. so the result:
you no need me to explain whose score huh...


What's life?
Life is about sharing, knowing, caring about your friends ya.
To know that people still remember you,
Have been wanting to meet you,
Just make you happy.
I'M happy.
because life is short,
Shouldn't we treasure it more?


I meet up with friends which i did not think there would be another opportunity .
Friends that i have so long never keep in touch with them.
But have been wondering how is their lives now?

And there it is.
All of a sudden,
i feel that my life has been reborn.

Thursday (May Day, 1 May) -- Meet my primary sch friends!~ =)
Next Sat (morning)-- I will be meeting with my tuition friends.
Next Sat (night)-- I will be meeting and going to clubbing with my wushu friends!~

My secondary sch friend called me to go for night cycle on next friday!! but hmm... i next day going out with my friends... =) so next time maybe! sorry.

All of a sudden, i felt that friends are all so impt to me. I was thinking if i were to meet up with my poly or intern friends.... would they meet up say after 8 yrs??


Steamboat with primary sch friends...
I meet my friends who i have lately lost in touch with them.
It has been fun, fun, and only fun for me.

Date: May 1 , 2008.

Always the first to arrive. haha.
Waited for 30 mins before the rest arrive.
You never know how nervous i am.
I was like meeting my girlfriend on our first date like that.

I was looking around at bugis MRT.
So many youngsters.
Trying to seek out my primary school friends among the many faces.
Heart thumping so loudly.
I was worried if there's any topic I could talk with them.

But alas!
The moment i saw my primary school friends,
we chatted so loudly, laughed... =)
People who don't know might think we are close friends.
But it was so much of fun.

To know what's my fellow pri sch friends doing.
To know how's their life now.
although only 9 out of 40 people who came for the gathering,
i was satisfied and happy.

It has been nice time catching up with long lost friends.
All of a sudden, i felt i have made a lot of ''new '' friends.

We chatted the happy times in primary sch.
We catch spiders, buy erasers to throw
We do many other stupid stuff that time...
Ghost stories at pri sch...
Played soccer everyday after school.
Make our teacher angry.
steal from mama shop...
we are so naughty at that time... haha.
Run away from teachers...

Jireh and Jaren... we are still so tanned now... same. haha.

I wanted to take more photos... but my other friend primary sch girl say something:
'' Your friendster so many photos le. all the funny postures de. You are one of the rare guys that i know who love to take photos. ''

No no!! i dun really like to take photos. That's what girls would do. But don't you think photos speak a thousand of words, plus it can be kept for future memories... =)

I realized so many new things:
- My friend is acting in many TV serials on channel 5 & channel U. i din even know that! she is our start among us. So being Jaren, i ask her to recommend me to the producers... and who knows... maybe Jaren one day will appear on TV acting... =) anyway, i did act before on TV okay... some extra in the channel 8 show. but not now... maybe future =X

- My the other friend is Temasek polytechnic ''xiao cao''!! (aka school grass translated in English).

- and they remind me of another classmate who is very very really pretty. Heard that she is now with an ang mo boyfriend. She's very tall now, and last time already so pretty, now is like a model like that... omg, i am sure she is very pretty now...

but what's the point of being rich, pretty if her attitude sux. I remembered that she pretend to cry when the other girl slapped her. She looks so pitiful that time.. and now my friend clarify that she just touch her face not slapped. But this pretty girl fake. and won the teacher's heart (becos she is really pretty!). So the other girl got punished.

those were the time then. Now, we know the truth. So fake.Heard 2 yrs ago, she went to oversea to further studies and some of us send off at the airport. She was so ''dao''... hmm..

I hate girls who are like that. So what if you are pretty? Does that gave her the license to act like that?? Yes, you are pretty. But she lost my respect for her. Everyone will grow old, or maybe god can cause one to become uglier in a car accident, so i think there's no need to become so proud of your face. What matters is your heart, is the only thing that will last i think. Lucky me, i did not send her off last time. haha. She was already like that in primary sch days. haiz.

poor thing. pretty, but why her character like that?? to me, she is a failure. =X

anw, it was so funny... me and Zheng Jue was waiting for the girls... esp. one of them.. she was so tall in primary sch days. So we both saying, shit, that girl is coming, she must be so much taller than us now... but guess what? That girl is around the same height as me and Zheng Jue. we were so grateful!! hmm... maybe girls mature faster during primary sch days, so we manage to catch up when we are in our secondary sch days... phew!! haha, so funny.

xxxxx jaRen –Yong jiA--

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