It has indeed been the most tiring days i ever had in my life. . . i have never felt so tired before.

I realized i only slept less than 10 hours from Monday night - today (Thur morning).

Monday night- Just before my ah ma go to hospital for an operation, i knew she cannot sleep. I chatted with her, giving her my encouragement. I know she needs it badly. I noticed she tossing over the bed and was worried of going to hospital. Ah ma, have faith in yourself okay?? promise me.

She was admitted to hospital on Tue afternoon for the operation on Wednesday. Wednesday was the big day for my family. all of us. She was wheeled into the operation room @ 12.45pm. And the doctor say the operation will not take long, only about 2 hours the most. But as time ticked by, me waiting at the hospital for my ah ma anxiously. Very second, seems so slow to me. Time was so so so slow. It has already been 3 hours already. The doctor came out and say the operation is bit tricky. Those words really sank my heart. ''No pls, i pray in my heart. May god save her was all what i could pray. ''

After 4 hours, she was finally wheeled out from the operation room. No amount of words could describe how relief was I. I stayed by my ah ma side and all of a sudden, she look so weak to me. This cant be my ah ma. She really looks so weak, her eyes could not open wide, she was breathing heavily.

All what i could do was to look @ her. How i really wish if she can transfer some of her pain to me. I dun want to see my loved ones suffering. I dunno what to say to her, but i only know if i have magic powers, i would like to share her pain.

For one moment, i begin to realize how important one is to each other. If you have the chance to say ''I love you, and show how impt one mean in my heart'' i think one should do it. you might never ever have the chance to say so even you want. yes, even if you want to tell the special person, your loved ones.

While my ah ma was sleeping heavily, my mind began to ponder. Should i tell her how much she actually mean in my heart? Ya, how much you mean to me actually. I am afraid i would never have the opportunity to let you know if i dun say it out from my heart. I'm serious for you.

Anyway, it was quite heart warming to see my relatives come visit my ah ma at night. I really want to say a big thank you to all who visit her. =)

The nurse showed and taught my mum & I how to remove her blood on a daily basis after she checked out from hospital. You know i hate blood, but my mum was worse. So i know i got to do the dirty job, but for my loved one, i dun mind even how dirty it is.

okay. i am really tired now. but wait! I got to whip up an important snack for someone special in my heart.

xxxxx jaRen –Yong jiA--

xxxxx 20 yrs old

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xxxxx love his ah ma