haiZ, these few days dunno why.. felt i lack of something.. a form of encouragement.. someone that i can talk to for hours.. someone i can turn to, no matter happy or sad, someone who wants and sincerely hope to share my worries cum happiness.

For what reason i realli dunno, i felt the lack of love from my friends, but i appreciate the support i get from my ah-ma. suddenly, she become my ''gf'' care abt me, someone that i can realli tok to, my day's happenings, intresting things, joke abt these and that....

sometimes, i feel i lack of friends... i realli dunno why i feel that.. as in i'm anti-social?? i realli had no idea abt this sub. am i? maybe i looks like... but if one know me well, i can be cranky, funky,.. i dunno maybe that's what i tink.. maybe i m wrong for all the time.

i would appreciate as in someone will juz cum into my life.. and show me the meaning of living on this earth. BUt i koe, no matter what happen, i still have to live oN.. and i will. life is precious. and i do realize this point. but sometime i still wonder, is human being born into this world to suffer or to be happy? my ans (what i think) is: one can onli be happy if he has someone to share with.. one will not be happy if he is all alone, no matter what he do, so?? no one will share with him.

people often say go find a gf .. ya is true that when u have a partner, i believe somehow or rather u will have the ''energy'' to live on. but ya i believe in horoscope, and my caporcion say i'm one who will not fall in love easily, remain faithful, but at time i hope this is not true for me.. but why?? it seems so true.. and i realli dunno.. haiZ, what to say anymore simply.

thinking of my life, after study, is work, after work, is back to sch... wha, life seem nv ending. but anyway, work i want in the 1st place... but ya it is becos my mum will not be happy if i don work... and i need to earn my own pocket moneY and save into my bank. at times, my fren open up my wallet and see the amt. i have in my bank. and they will say ''wha'' but hey, i save every penny, u can say that i m stingy , or anytin, but to me, i believe that we shld save for rainy days.. and to be frank, my mum onli gave me $35 one week. while i see my other friends have as much as as $50.. or even more.. i believe. me ya $35.. and that explain the fact that i need to watch closely every penny that i spent. ppl often say i nv treat them, so now ya learning to be more generous.. to be a better change person. i am still able to save as much as $15 a week , despite i m onli given $35 . seeing my fren playin arcade, actualli i feel like playing.. but most of the time i control myself. is not that i m stingy, for which i koe some ppl may feel that i am, but is becos of my allowance. since young, my mum had been strict with my allowance. but as i grow older, i spent on things that i feel i shld .. to make myself happy.

but till now, i realli no one ( or maybe 1-3 max) will be there for me..

drift away.... =(

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