sigh... been thinking.. see tze shuen cut his hair.. reminds me of what colour my hair shld be?!?! hahaZ.. today half day... work from 10am to 2pm.. but morning veri stress... veri busy.. all i one person do.. lucky Roony help me with the bowls (runner side) then i have to wash 19 cloths.. wipe over 35 tables... bring out the trays.. make wasabei... ( 15 cups) make till i ''CRY'' then fill up 3 water tank... do so many things still get scolded... by Yanpin.. i hate those women supervisor.. or manager.. the women tned to be fussy... expect this and that... say i slow.. u so celver u do lah.. stand there tok tok tok... ur mouth not tired? haiZ.. at least the man (manager) is better.. they will help u...

so now thinking .. shld i dye my hair? or highlight?? haiZ... sakae sure dun allow me to have those outstanding colour.. and if thta is the case... can i still highlight???

Ho... last week receive my poly 1st semester results... can say ya i a little satisifed... but i thought if gettin better results for certain sub such as Intro to Hosp& tourism...

anyway ya when eatin my lunch at home.. preparing to go work le.. (sian) saw a scary SMS..

ya is my results..

Micro-econ: A
Intro to hosp & tourism: B
F&B : C+ ( i thought i was goin to fail when i took the paper)
Travel Geo : B+
BCS (computer thingy): B
Transport : B+
Comm skills (english) : B
i pass my APEL (aka civil moral Education) , unbelievable , cos my class is the damn nosiy one.. with humans like ''them'' , onli The AMC grp ppl koe how to behave .... lol

so ya ok ba ... my mum alwys emphasis that poly i muz study hard.. cos she pay a lot of Cash... ya, i koe.. mum... i will... jia you.. still have 2.5 yrs more...

anyway, my bro goin to jump from the 5000 feet above ground level... on this FRi.... hoo...i'm so excited for him... how cool is that... but as usual.. he grambles.. complaint....training is tough... bound for u to suffer like shit.. they practise the wind pressure on ground.. and ya he say the air is totally different from the ground... the pressure can change suddenly and the wind is far more strong... they learn how to fall.... and i was told it took less than a min for them to faLL.... and that airspace is expensive.. dare not to jump.. they will push them down... force to... all planes will not fly near the kallang airspace on fri ... at noon time...

by the way, my mum not in now le... feel so different.. lol. she went to Sabah for meeting... and ya my mum goin to accompany my ah ma to China in 2 month time.. then my ah ma goin to vietnam next fri.. so left me alone.. Hmm.. no one will cook for me, wash clothes for me le when my ah ma away.... aiya.... !!
then my mum say go US with my dad next Jan... and for me.. she goin to Sri Lanka (oh !!) she planing to go on OCT 25... cos i having my holidays.... actualli wanted go india.. but she say it needs around 15 days ... too long le.. cannot.. i love to go to EXotic places... yeah... hopefully i can go sri lanka.. soon. and let me see.. quit my Sakae job!!! oh yesh... how i wish thta day can come... earlier!!!

then ya thur my day off... and ya THE amazing RACE is starting... OH .... gosh.. i have been waiting for ages... i m a DIE =hard amazing race fan... is on wed... same time... =P and ya CHELSEA VS LIVERPOOL ... bring it oN. i will be free to watch that champ league match... and hereby wish CHELSEA lose to liverpool... gd luck in losing, chelsea.. u cant beat us.. cos we beat u before (laST season) and till now, u are still a rank below us.... boo Off .. liverpool forever!!! =)

WORK! ar.. how i wish i can break... turning back the clock, how i wish i could juz say i work part-time onli... not FULL TIME. is so damn tiring lo...

if work night shift means work from 1.45pm to as late as 11.30pm... hey is 11.30pm!! u koe... when the streets is quiet, when bus is lesser and MRT is Closing their gates, when There are MANY MANY taxis on the streets.. for which after midnite.. they seem to appear out of nowhere.. this week, ya work night shift.. so alwys back home at 12am.... oh, i shld say the next morin? =P

so ya stand till my leg wan to break le.. is juz a matter of time thta i need to seek treatment for standing too long.. and when it comes to dinner time, my god.. the crowD... like haiZ.. dunno what to say.. is like there is onli one restaurant in Bugis man... call Sakae... see others eateries shop like no ppl leh... and ya we busy like shit.. run here and there.. customer order... drinks.. food... then me new comer.. so now learning to take orders... today take 3 orders wrong.. joey ask me to see.. ask them again.. but hey din u point to me juz now thta u wan this and this... and when my manager stand beside me and wan me to ask u, u say u din order!!! WTF, oopss... realli FUCK.

u did order din u?? and now u trying to say NO?? okay.. no comments... accpet is my fault.. since customer is always correct...

then ya today ya my poly class chalet.. aiya.. no time.. not dun wan to go.. is cannot go.. but hope ya they all do enjoy themselves.. and i doubt they will miss me... anyway, to be frank, dun realli like my ya poly class EXCEPT AMC grp.... AMC ROX!! anyway, we changing class le.. so glad.. onli i will miss some of them... (G00D humans)

anyway, still pondering shld i take all 3 days unpay leave for 4E chalet?? cos tze shuen say ya maybe they dun allow all 3 days... since i m a full timer.. which is quite true la.. 3 days is too long.. and if u wan me to work half day ... then means i have to rush.. and is like i cant realli enjoy myself.. and there is another chalet too... so shld i go to 4E one? if go, how shld i arrange my timing?? sakae allow me? if go, will it be fun? would i realli enjoy myself? wont i tired myself even more? since i surely cant sleep during chalet... wha, so many qns... deep thoughts... how shld i say to sakae IF i am to go for chalet? then what abt the another chalet?

Still thinking....

yUp, work on sunday.. hey isnt it a public holi on sunday? but haiya .. ya service line, so i cant complaint.. anyway, so many people seem to like to eat sakae.. why???????

today ya went to work, as usual... 9.45am meet tze shuen then went up to sakae. then ya do the usual opening stuff, clean tables, wash thousands of cloth... make wasaibe aka the green hot substance that will make ppl feel hot. wha.. cant stand it.. make the wasaibe dman hot, my eyes burning like seow, nose cant take it, tears flowing down as if i m crying ... man truly i am, crying in my heart cos i ned to work....

working at sakae is tiring,.. but i koe every job is aso. but juz that working at income lastime is i seat too much, then will get scolded at times, now is i stand too much, and aso longer hrs.. no break weekends.. best denki is aso stand.. but at least i work onli 5 hrs there.. and sales is easier, if ya familar with the stuff u selling, and of cos with commission it drives me on. but now at sakae, aiya.. work then work la, work so hard aso dun have commission.. the company maybe doing well, but i aso din get the incentitive. anyway, my name is not on the rich list, so i got to work.

so ya study the menu. the assisstant manager want me to koe it well... but ya i try my best.. i can be say veri hardworking le... then went to do the soya sauce and the ginger thingy... yucks.. so ma fan.. and expect me to complete it in 25 mins!! so many things to do, wash cloth for every few bottles u wipe, then still ned to go fridge take the sauce , ginger, collect all the bottels on the table, wipe it clean, refill it to the brim, then later the ginger and sauce not enuf, still ned to take the packet out from the drawer.... cut, pour, put it nicely, wipe, wha .. so manY things to do... expect me to do it in 25 mins!! over 35 tables plus plus... hey so many bottles... the assistant manager can see is quite young la.. she so clever ask her to do la... chey.

she makan finish, then say i ned to speed up, cos she makan finish le... i was thinking, u makan finish, got mine problem/? cant u see i m trying my best, AUNTIE!!! i console myself by saying , this young manager think she koe everything... tink she can do that fast.. u clever u do la... say i slow... harlo... i do my best liao ... anyway, if nextime i your manager, hhahahaZZZ, then i will have my revenge.. i will ask her to do this and that... then will tell her back, why so slow/? nv eat rice huh ?

so ya she teach us the food in sakae.. what they are call, how to prepare , some methods of cooking... what is inside the sushi... what sauce with what food... how to tell customer... aiya.. so many things to rem...

die ... see tze shuen like so bored... he koes everything lo.... he work b4. not me. so of cos i ned to learn from stratch. say so many things at one go... i wonder i can remember anot.

anyway, the other assisatant manager aso ask me to do this and that.. all the clenaing job... climb to wipe... use thinner to wipe the fridge. wha lau. i thought i was employ to be a service crew.. and sudd i felt like i am a cleaner... working for them at a cheap rate... but to console myself again, is all experience.

at least i work in 3 types of diff types of jobs.... from sales to admin staff and now to F&B...

anyway i m currently studying in a course which have F&B.. so ok la... at least i learn smth.. for example: see ppl prepare food, fold cloth, wipe table (not so easy as u tink) , serve?

tze shuen during our free time would tok abt his happenings in his life... hahaZ, cute. tok abt his.. ya... that human. how they spent the time... ^_^ no commenTs.

and ya he lookin forward to 4E chalet...

Hmm for me? haiZ, i dunno if i m looking forward anot leh... my mind told me nope, i m not looking forward cos.... but deep down my heart, i m looking forward... cos..... aso the same thing.. suddenly, i feel so lose... lose in the sense of dunno wheather to feel happy or sad? thinking of how to react.. to be frank, my heart is still the same.. but i koe ... i din realli push for it for you in the past.. din took it seriously.. but now i regret.. but still i din do anytin.. but deep down my heart.. actualli i still have a space for ya.. is juZ that i nv say it out... or express it out so openly like other ppl that i koe of... but i swear.. my heart is the same.. after 2 yrs??? i realli dunno... but i koe we shld lead a different life...but if u will to fall down or somehow hurt yourself in any case.. , i swear if i m there... i will be the 1st to rush to your side, cos i care.. my heart hurts... okay. no comments.. someone ask me abt ya... and i say no commenTs.. and i was told that all along i have been escaping... is that the case? i realli dunno.... but 1 thing for sure... i will leave to fate.. may God let me find someone who truly derverse my love for her and the onli girl in this world...

i believe in fate cos is all started in fate in Tze shuen case?? hahaZZZ... =)

F_A_T_E

Blown off ~~~~ without anyone noticing.. disappearing in thin air without a single human's care.

haiZ, these few days dunno why.. felt i lack of something.. a form of encouragement.. someone that i can talk to for hours.. someone i can turn to, no matter happy or sad, someone who wants and sincerely hope to share my worries cum happiness.

For what reason i realli dunno, i felt the lack of love from my friends, but i appreciate the support i get from my ah-ma. suddenly, she become my ''gf'' care abt me, someone that i can realli tok to, my day's happenings, intresting things, joke abt these and that....

sometimes, i feel i lack of friends... i realli dunno why i feel that.. as in i'm anti-social?? i realli had no idea abt this sub. am i? maybe i looks like... but if one know me well, i can be cranky, funky,.. i dunno maybe that's what i tink.. maybe i m wrong for all the time.

i would appreciate as in someone will juz cum into my life.. and show me the meaning of living on this earth. BUt i koe, no matter what happen, i still have to live oN.. and i will. life is precious. and i do realize this point. but sometime i still wonder, is human being born into this world to suffer or to be happy? my ans (what i think) is: one can onli be happy if he has someone to share with.. one will not be happy if he is all alone, no matter what he do, so?? no one will share with him.

people often say go find a gf .. ya is true that when u have a partner, i believe somehow or rather u will have the ''energy'' to live on. but ya i believe in horoscope, and my caporcion say i'm one who will not fall in love easily, remain faithful, but at time i hope this is not true for me.. but why?? it seems so true.. and i realli dunno.. haiZ, what to say anymore simply.

thinking of my life, after study, is work, after work, is back to sch... wha, life seem nv ending. but anyway, work i want in the 1st place... but ya it is becos my mum will not be happy if i don work... and i need to earn my own pocket moneY and save into my bank. at times, my fren open up my wallet and see the amt. i have in my bank. and they will say ''wha'' but hey, i save every penny, u can say that i m stingy , or anytin, but to me, i believe that we shld save for rainy days.. and to be frank, my mum onli gave me $35 one week. while i see my other friends have as much as as $50.. or even more.. i believe. me ya $35.. and that explain the fact that i need to watch closely every penny that i spent. ppl often say i nv treat them, so now ya learning to be more generous.. to be a better change person. i am still able to save as much as $15 a week , despite i m onli given $35 . seeing my fren playin arcade, actualli i feel like playing.. but most of the time i control myself. is not that i m stingy, for which i koe some ppl may feel that i am, but is becos of my allowance. since young, my mum had been strict with my allowance. but as i grow older, i spent on things that i feel i shld .. to make myself happy.

but till now, i realli no one ( or maybe 1-3 max) will be there for me..

drift away.... =(

Hoo... today ya my brother graduation's BMT day. at last, finally, he is not the ''lowest dirt on earth'' as he echoed, he passed out as a commando recruit.. yep, went to his pasir ris camp ealry in the morning...

woke up at 7.30am... SianZ, cos is sat leh.. shld have the ''right'' to sleep more, but anyway, is my bro day, and the thought of going to an army camp drives me on. and ya reach dere, took photos for my bro their bunkmates, their company of friends, and ya video cam the whole procedure of march -pass. wow.. seems cool. but this is yet to be the real one.. cos he is onli a recruit.. hahaZ.

but ya he's going to jump on 19 SEp this month if i m not wrong... wow. cool. jump from a height of above i tink is 9000 meters rite above sea level? but see him like anxious. then ya explore his camp, thinking in 2.5 yrs time, i will be like him, head shaven, doing all those tough excercise, running, jumping, push ups, sleeping with my grp bunks ... bathing together, sing song, cheer, suffering together....

took many photos... the facilities they offer at the pasir ris camp i muz say is wonderful. cos all looks so new... nice.. but to mY brother is a hell for him. to my parents, is a chalet. what's more!!.. they offer a nice sea view.. their camp overlooks the sea.. no obstruction. the sea is so nearby ... that i tink not many ppl knew abt this... an army camp by the sea.

then later went to kick soccer... it rain so went to void-deck then no more rain, back to the same place the Kem field to kick. and as usual, i enjoy it.. but noW tink i cant afford the time to kick soccer during weekends for thE nExt 7 weeks.. so how?? i realli wish to kick, i m most happy when kicking soccer with those bunch of crappy friends...

gosh.. today the alarm clock smth wronG.. it ring.. and unlike me, i went to switch off and doze off again... muz be cos is holiday now for me... so din bother... then i wake up to find that it wAs 10.30am!! oo sHity, i was late lo.. i gonna meet Tze shuen at 11am parkway to go hunt for job.. and now i m still lying on my bed half an hr before the appoinment with him.

I rushed like nobody biZ, quickly change, do this do that... then my ah ma cook fried rice.. force me to eat so that i no need to go outside and waste $... so sweet ya. anyway, i tush to bus stop then saw no.197 bus went off... ''SHIT" my bus.... waited for 15 mins for the next no.197 vehicle (bus, for info) ... notice a lot Taxi while waiting... wanted to get onE cos i was late, but think think then think... then still think, after thinking for 15 mins, i decide to take public bus la.. Cos the bus was coming by the time i was thinking..

reach parkway at 11.25 am ... Tze shuen at the arcade playing his tennis game.. then learnt that Susake sushi was not open yet.. so i m still early in the sense. then went to basement to look for job.. at sukae sushi, Tze ask his ex-manager .. ya got job but u have to work long term, in which both him and me duN wan la.. cos our parents wanT us to concentrate on study. then given the choice of Raffles or harbourfront. i was thinking harbourfront not baD .. cos my mum is working there, so maybe she can fetch me at times.. and next yr i going ard there to study mA, so maybe get a feeling of going there and exploring the place..

We went to MaC cafe to sit.. and there i was, spearding out my classified Ads looking for jobs... i seem to be somebody hunger for jobs lo.. look at those that i earlier highlighted.. call 2 companies Up, 1 of them say theirs is when they need u then call u up, not regular basis. the other one want me to commit 3 mths... in which both i can't.

btw, ya saw kenneth and his whole family theRe.. Wha, they seem so free ar... happy family chatting at Mac...

searching for jobs in progress, weNt back to sakaE at pp cos we decide to work at harbourfront or changi airport... then wanted to tell Tze's ex manager but they seem so busy since is lunch hr... then we walk walk ard parkway.. saw so many jobs available.. so many simply too muCh, din know that parkway has many jobs to offer... but all either ned experience, or sales girls or able to work long perioD... so cannot . then saw Royal sporting house want temp workers... then Ren jie Call say maybe can work at bugis Sukae, so we decide ''ya, okay... why not?'' it will be a gd experience.. since i lastime work as promoter, then admin staff... and now a waiter... try the diff types of jobs...

went back home 1st.. cos still early for the appointment.. then meet up with Tze shuen at 3.30pm, bugis. waited for the manager for almost 1 hr! cos he busy.. then he told us abt the job.. so ya got the job.

Hmm.. the pay is okay la.. no comments on that. accpetable since is i work for onli 1.5 mths plus plus it tink...

anyway. today is tiring.. and ya tml is time to visit my brother Camp!

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ARGH!! shity... i have study.. and i koe i did my Best... i study le.. all.. everything... all the small examples.. all the difficult names... onli 2 part, i nv study which is butter & wines!!!


and shit.. to mY horror, it came out.. the wine part.. i have expected it .. and i koe is imp.. but i thought is going to be 1 qn onli.. so take the risk... since i thought i can be able to handle the other qn well... BUT (always in the case) the wine part consists of 15 marks~!~ oh my @@@

i realli dunno... i juz read the brief points.. and the tins is i din even saw those word that they want me to explain the process in my notes before! holy ### anway, i was like cursing the paper... ''what!? 15 marks and is gone juz like this? '' so i juz bullshit.. crap... cold stablisation---> it is a process where wines are out in a cold place... to make it stablise.. the wine particles would sink to the bottom... CRAP. i juz simply breaking up the word to explain. and i koe is all rubbish, i thought i was doing english exam ( breaking up of words to explain) so i koe i m going to fail this exam badly.

plus, the MCQ parT, i tink shld have wronged at least 6 qns! haiZ... the others abt beer part, which i m rather intrested aso damn difficult.. i was bull shiting all the way ..

i study deeply in topic like vegetables, fruits and meats!! which i m rather interested in (NOT WINE) and it turn out to be MCQ!! haiZ...

i study and i koe.. but not wines.. but why? and the qn seem difficult. and it seem that i going to take the sub-paper.. which i of cos dun wan ... if i m going to fail, how will i be going to ans to my mum.. who wants me to do well desperately.

anyway, pray... see thta is the onli tin u can do now after exam. my coursework i got a 'B' grade.. lucky my project grade (A) put me up... but still the exam is 40%!! if i fail badly, means ....

i told myself, one day, i m gonna cook the nicest dishes one can find on Earth for the speical person in my heart... HER. all my effort.. my lvoe, my feelings in that dish. i love to cook, and hope to touch her heart... by ya doing this.. anyway, i m not in love now.. with anyone cos i simply no ''target''/// hahaZ...

i was wondering to myself, my peeps around me.. some of them can simply break with their current one, and go along with the new gf.. dont u have any love? toying with feelings? trying out product ?

anyway, gettin on to commando stories, sat i m goin to visit my brother camp! yeah.. so cool. i did not went there last time.. and now i got the chance to see him pass out as a commando... Wow.. waiting for SAt. heard of those commando, oh.. is not worth it if u are juz in NS for 2 yrs.. cos eveeyday is a suffering.. but now better after bakc the trip from Tektong.. anyway, i here to wish my bro all the best!! go , charge! kill the enemies.. and hey, i koe he wanna jump the parachute thing.. and he is freakin scare.... lol. people pay to jump... paparchute. and here you are, so lucky, got paid ard $40? to jump once leh... so good... but he got to jump every 6 mths. anyway, i wss thinking the time when i jump lastime back in Egypt.. so scary, i muz admit.. but is once for a lifetime onli... try it. anyway, if u ask me jump now, i maybe would say no thanks.. cos is quite a mental torture to be frank juz before u jump.... hahaZ. but is nice.

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yUP!! kelly lose.. oh yesh.. seriously i tink kelly voice onli 1 kind... not good.. and when she sing, she dun have that kind of feelings, and ya when i close her eyes, i dun koe what she singing.. cos she sing the words not clear! oh my.. how can u be a singer when u sing not clear?? so she lose is good.. but in the 1st place, i am shock at why she can cum back into the competition in the 1st place when she had already been voted out.. OUT OUT.. u see.. so bias i tink ... seriously i tink they have the come back round for kelly onli.. she not sux, but her voice.. not sayin that i m good, but ya i tink other competitiors who are better are instead being voted out.. oh my.! what the ... lol.

anyway, the point of superstar is based on popularity.. so i accept the fact that kelly cant sing well but still voted in.

i call to support kelvin!! cos all i wanted is to see kelly lose. *bad- hearted ya* grin. but hey kelvin is better cos he touched my heart... u may say i vote for him cos he's blind.. but NO. he has the courage. which i admire. and ya at least he sing with feelings... to me, a good singer is someone who can touch ppl heart by their voice, they have a stoyry in every song that want ot convey to people... and the turnig point of their voice muz be perfect... the timing and the expression on their facE muz go along with the song they are singing... and ya the dressing aso counts alot.. aso dpends if the singer can sing without the music... muz be good.. words muz be clear.. but FEELING is still the most imp..

anyway, nv waste my $ ar... good job, kelvin.. but other are better than i tink. anyway, these 2 are already winner... how i wish i can sing one day.... on stage... wow.. so cool, u koe... SUPERSTAR 2..... haha...

yeah.. some of the potential superstars in the pic... example: joyce... Pam.. keng kee ya...

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