haiX.. dunno what's wrong with me these few days?? suddenly lost interest in everytin and anytin. ARGH~~

for whatever reason, i find my life seem to be lost ... as in losing smth in life. and ya is it LOVE?? =X i thought if the topic i did for discussion in tutorial... is MONEY or LOVE more imp??
my grp choose money as we all agreed on. but now come to tink back, to me LOVE is more imp than MONEY. so what if we have money?? we cant buy happiness. or when we are sad, no one will be there for us. console. keep your spirits up.

the past few days, i sat the bus alone home from TP. ya... the journey is so long.. 50mins... ZZzzz alng the way, i observe people. people.. how they walk.. how they present themselves.. what they wear. and ya.. me sittin at the upper deck of bus 21. thinking of my life for the past few years. OH mY. i realize is so empty. not many step into my life and make a difference to me.

lookin down up left right, almost eveywhere, saw boys and girls together. laughing teasing at each other... holding hands.. joking with each of their gf. and me.. oh.. the seat next to me is emptY. no one. no soul beside me. haiZ.. how i wish i have a gal ya to be there when i need her. to crack joke with her.. to celebrate her & my birthday together. to spent our up & down no matter what happen. to walk (send) her home and make sure she is alright at all time. chat with her on the phone till midnight. her problem will be mine problem. cherish each other dearly. walk with her at night along changi beach lookin at stars and airplanes above us.

ARGH... celebrate my friends bdae these few days and weeks... around 10 ppl bdae... wha din koe so many human's bdae in the month of JUne. then ya see them each (not all though) have their partner to clebrate for them. how i wish mine for the next 18 bdae would be like them. having the one i like and love together on my bdae. blowing the candles together so sweet... haIz.. this is juz a dream for jaren.... dream will nv cum true. wake up jaren... haiX..

seein ppl so happy together... of cos i wish them the best... but deep down my heart.. i ask myself.. when would be my turn?? W-H-E-N? haiX.. when would i celebrate either her or mine bdae together... ? or if there's is a gal who willing to hear me tokin to her till 3am.. who will be there cracking jokes with her.. chat everytin and anytin...

but ya the irony tin is i don't fall in love easily.... not kiddng.. seein my frens fall in love then break then like another one so easily.. and fast... i was tinking.. is this TRUE love?? nah.. i dun wan this kind of relationship. i hope to be with the one i love.. and thta's all... dun wan so many relationship. so tiring... juz one enuf.. and marry... this would be better... true love...

sayin so much, i don't fancy any gal for the moment.... so mean life is like so aimless for me at the moment... LOL// i looks like so ''deseprate'' hor? no la.. is juz my feelings... i dun anyhow like a girl... but when i like means i really like her...

so ya change image... change hair colour.. my cousin told me my hair colour suX.. =( okay. i 'm goin to highlight my hair la... not dying brown anymore... she say not nice. so saD to hear that. let me see.. maybe in 3 mths time, highlight to golden... i check it out at the tampines saloon near TP with my poly frens.. is cheap... i m goin to do that in mths time... i don't like BROWN HAIR...

and ya.. i love my ah ma... she alwys been taking care of me... cook food... wash clothes... tidy up my place... i realli hope she can live a veri long time.. i will miss her BADLY if she is gone... i love u.. AH MA!!

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